I smell a new horror movie in the works

...is what a friend suggested I do.  And I am doing so. 

I keep forgetting that I have met a lot of awesome people here.  It's been great.  I will continue to keep an open mind about people. 

I imagine most of you know of this already, but October 12th to 16th is Military Rape Awareness Week. Shockingly, the latest report from the Department of Defense reports that 1 of 3 women in the military are raped while in service. This video of a former officer telling her story on the streets of NY really got to me and I hope it will stir something in you as well.

I'm not sure she understood but I think I told her what's what....

now for the harder/more awkward part

effing deuce, she's so nice, calling me everyday, laughing all the time

why can't I tell her I just wanna be friends?

Ugh, I am at a point where I just can't bother to tolerate Asian American generational conflicts and misunderstandings anymore.
stories and tales of parents or grandparents forcing their ignorant bigotry onto their unwilling children.
Understanding our parents/grandparents from a cultural and historical viewoint is important but GOD there are so many times I just want to yell "shutup shutup that's ignorant/that's racist/that's offensive/how could you SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT?!?"


I've always wondered what it's like to grow up in a 3rd generation/4th generation mindset. I know it's not a completely different experience...but lordly lord oh lord how it could have made my family a little less conflicted.

I wonder...if I have children someday...I wonder...how will they identify themselves? Ultimately the choice lies with them, but I'll be damned if my little girl rebels against me and turns into the next Michelle Malkin. Ugh, chills down my spine.

My aunt had asked me the other day if I wanted a boy or a girl and I immediately said 'girl'. I don't know why. I think boys are little shits, personally, who on average grow up into the big turds that men are.

...that opinion might have something to do with my current job...iono, maybe.

Hmmm. Yes I would like a girl. And leave it at that.

I've become very needy lately.....=/